Just needing a release

Enough of this emotional down in the dumps crap! I'm tired of feeling this way, and tired of feeling like this thing between DT and I will never happen. Now, that's not to say I'm over that feeling because I'm not. I'm drowning right now, but this thought keeps coming to mind and I need to get it out! A release!!

We walk in the room, there's a dim light from the other side, music is playing from the desk. Before I can appraise the rest of the room, he presses me against the door, his strong hands at my shoulders, sliding down my arms taking my hands as he leans in to kiss me. As his lips open and his tongue begins its possessive dance with mine he draws my arms up over my head taking both wrists in his one large hand holding me there at his mercy. It was then that I noticed the handcuffs running through an eye bolt in the door above my head. He gave a little chuckle as he nipped at my lower lip.

My hands were shaking as he pulled me up to secure my wrists in the silver cuffs, leaving me standing with my heels just off the ground balancing on my toes. He softly slid his fingertips down my arms grinning in satisfaction as goosebumps popped up under his touch. He leaned in again kissing me, claiming me in a way that only he can.

Psycho much??

So, DTs old phone was finally shut off. One less bill to pay. But oops, we hadn't gotten around to letting his ex-wife know the new number just yet. Honestly, it has been very peaceful not to have her call or text every day just to harp at him about money.

Well, the problem is she's a tad psychotic. You all know that DT and I have been together for almost 2 years now. He told her it was over shortly into our relationship. They separated 20 months ago!! But as recently as last week, she was still saying things like this...

"I know so much has happened, but in my soul, I know God didn't bring us together just for us to end so quickly. I pray with all my heart that I get a job again and move out of my parent's house. I want to give my kids a place of their own to run and play. I want to give my husband a place to come home to."

and...

" The relationship he thought he had with his Internet lover hasn't turned out the way he wanted."

and...


"I spoke vows to God to love this man forever. I take them very seriously. I've changed so much since all of this has happened. I've grown and I've learned. My husband is so far away from God. But I still pray every day for him. I pray that God will hold him in His hand and give my DH the love he is so desperately seeking. I pray that God will help my husband come home. I pray that God will give me the strength to hold my husband up and give him the time he needs.

OK... that's it. My tale. But I really wonder if my husband knows how very much he is loved. How very much I want to work through all of our problems. I wonder if he knows?"


Follow this by the message that she left me last night...

"Please tell my husband to call his wife."
"While contacting you is extremely difficult and not something I want to do. I am asking you to ask DT to call me. I haven't heard from him in two weeks. I'm worried about him.
That is all I'm saying. He is my husband and we have two little children together. I love him very much, no matter what you do.
So I'm asking you to find some compassion and have him call me.
Thank you,"

Now, honestly, I was on my way to bed when she sent that last night. She had no way to know if I was online or not. So, I didn't answer her. DT agreed to wait until today. Well, that was a bad call. She called the local Police Department today. Now I'm sure this got a good laugh over at the PD and County. After all, DT does work part-time for the County, in fact, he was at work when the call came in. She wanted the PD to do a wellness check.


Really? He is a 40-year-old man, in perfectly good health. Why in the world would she think he needed a wellness check? I never did reply to her on Facebook. At his request, I do have a reply ready to send once he is able to read it.

I have to wonder just how long she is going to hold on to this fight? She knows that he wants a divorce, there are a couple things that have to be taken care of first, the first of which will be finished tonight. I have this fear that 25 years from now, DT and I will be happily married, enjoying a long life together and she is still going to be calling me his whore, and telling people that she's sure he'll come home to her.

Broken...

Lesson learned....knowing my anatomy, and his anatomy, we both know that I always need a slow start or I'm gonna be hurt. But let me tell you when its been 5 months apart we threw caution to the wind and broke my poor pussy on night one of our trip.

Did I mention, it didn't slow us down until Monday when I had to go home. LOL

More details to come about the trip, our firsts and the kink that we enjoyed together.