Soap opera anyone?

There have been many times in my life when I've said that the life I was living was better than any soap opera ever written. Even today that holds true.

I'm living with this great guy who I want to spend my life with. I'm his slave and have given my very soul to him. But he's married to a neurotic woman that desperately wants him back, however, she is verbally and emotionally abusive every time she talks to him. Did I mention that I am also married, to an abusive man who just last week told me (in his words) " I don't know about you but sometimes I really kick myself in the ass for letting you go "

I have a son that is a mental health disaster, two gorgeous girls that love to instigate fights between me and their Dad, and a teen daughter that has pushed me so far that I almost kicked her out, then she ran away, now she's the dream child again.

We've been running our own business and got screwed by someone we thought was a friend.

All in all, it really makes me laugh. But sometimes the stress of it all is a bit overwhelming.


How many times does he have to be asked things like; "If I die would you come get the boys?" "You'll have to come get the boys I'm leaving and you'll never hear from me again", and posting online "Would the boys be better off with DH?" So, I keep asking how long does he have to hear this? We would take the boys in an instant if we thought she was serious and didn't want them. But I know that she uses those comments to get him to call her and talk her down. She wants him at any expense.

On the other hand, my ex is calling and texting all nicey nice. Nothing like the man I was married to. I'm glad to see he's growing into a better person. But I have no desire to share my life with him...EVER. I'm just glad that I don't have to fight and argue all the time. The downside is that I really am still afraid of him. And because of that fear, I do some really stupid stuff. (more on that later)

I wouldn't change my life....the stress, the drama, the craziness of it all. Who wants to be normal?

all the drama...

I know my blog posts have been few and far between recently. There are several reasons, my job of course, and then there is the drama of my future ex (FX). Added to that there is the stress that DT has been going through by moving his family halfway across the country.

Just an update that things in my camp have gone from bad to worse. My husband knows about DT and I being in love, for now, we are telling him that we are all pursuing a poly life. So, much of my venting and ranting in the next few weeks will be all about trying to work through his issues at being poly. I have to do something or he will cut off my communication with DT and that is something that neither of us could stand.

For now, things are this way...DT and I are working to get him to Denver, where we can get him settled and then move me and my girls out to him once I'm out of my situation. Let's just pray this all falls together soon for all of our sake.