Sir Sunday- Back on my "Soap Box"

Sir Sunday


Rants and ravings from my soapbox in the corner of the internet.


I know it has been a while since I have been up here on my soapbox, it has been too long. But as you all know there has been a lot of life-changing events in both my and HBD’s lives. There is no need to recap them all, but it had taken both HBD's and my desire to write for a bit and due to security concerns we have been forced underground and private for now. But now we are slowly coming back to the blog and our e-friends.
I had a different topic in mind when I sat down to write this post but like is usually the case I seem to have abandoned the original topic for whatever seems to come pouring out of my brain.

These last 4 or so weeks have been complete and utter hell for HBD and me, between her FX being home for 3 weekends in a row and his unpredictable moods, (which I swear he is on drugs) and my FX and her incessant crying and whining about how bad her life is. Her FX has taken to calling me on the phone and trying to “get to know the man that makes his wife happy”.(wtf) A lame attempt at trying to control the situation, as we are trying to convince him that we are working on a “poly” relationship, this is just to try and keep him calm and HBD safe. He is constantly flip-flopping back and forth about making it work to calling me and texting me to tell me HBD is all mine and he hopes we are happy. (How many times does he have to do that before I can say “dude are you serious this time?”) This has to stop eventually …right?

Well, I know this is a short recap and gripe fest, but I have to start somewhere to get back on the blogging track and this seemed like as good a place as any.




Now I would like to put a couple of Poems I recently wrote for HBD here, for her and your reading pleasure.



With you...

When I'm with you,
Eternity is a step away,
My love continues to grow,
With each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
How much I love you...
You’ll never really know.

You bring joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
With each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,
Whenever we part,
Know I hold you dearly,
Deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever and Always,
I Will Love You."


Need you

I love you more than all the stars in the sky.
I love you more as each moment passes us by.
I love you more with every breath I take.
I love you more with each promise we make.

I need you like a flower needs the rain.
I need you for you can wash away my pain.
I need you more each day
I need you for you are so wonderful, in every single way.

I miss you more than ever now.
I miss you because I really need you somehow.
I miss you and your touch.
I miss you for to me, you mean so much.

I want you to caress my lips the way you always do.
I want you to look into my eyes and see my love for you.
I want you to hold me close to your heart.
I want you to know that I love you, need you, miss you and want you
And I have for every single moment, right from the start.


Thank you for taking the time to read my post from my soapbox in this corner of the internet.
HBD you know I love you, I NEED you, and desire only you, you are my one and only for the rest of my life, you are truly my better half.
~DT

We Interrupt this story with a reality break !!!..... AGAIN!!!!!!!!

Sir Sunday

We interrupt this story with a reality break !!!..... AGAIN!!!!!!!!

Hello again, it must be Sunday again because here I am “on my soapbox in this corner of the internet”. I know today is to a much smaller audience as we recently had to go “underground” and “private” for a bit as we regroup from a bit of a “Reality check”. As you all read in the last post, HBD's FX found the blog,. And luckily for us, the combination of his confrontational nature and his low IQ kept HBD a little safe from him finding out the WHOLE story. (He couldn't get past HBD's sexy pictures from the last HNT). This has truly confirmed in my mind that he is truly just a walking penis, with no cares for HBD except for the express use of her body for his own pleasure. As HBD and I have full disclosure about all things past and present, I am at least familiar with his “shortcomings” in the role of the lover. This latest tirade from the FX is another in a long line of episodes that have me apologizing for Men as a whole.

I had asked HBD earlier if things in her marriage had ever been “good” at one point, (from being married twice myself I know at one point both of my marriages had been good, then through life and personal growth and atrophy things fell into disrepair). Here is a little transcript:

HBD:.....when things were "good" between us, well let's face it he never was really in one place long enough to make connections

DT: true enough, how long did things stay good?

HBD: honestly? good, or just my perception of good?

DT: honestly
.
HBD: My perception of good, mmmm, until about a year and a half ago.........truly good......never

DT: I am sorry that your marriage was never "good"...

HBD: Don't be. I didn't realize it wasn't, in my mind it was great.

HBD: I just didn't see the wrongs in it

DT: I know but on discovery, there has to be some regret

HBD: Yeah, there is. But on the other hand, I realize I had to go through that to be where I am now. Some times the reward outweighs the regret. And if I dwell on that regret I mentally put myself back into being beat down.

DT: well I won't let you go back there, lover...

HBD: I know, and I Thank You for that. You've pulled me back out of that hole, its kinda funny to say that I'm not leaving this marriage and the hell I live in for you, I am leaving it for me. But then to turn around and say that I never would have done it without you. It seems to be a contradiction of terms.




DT: All I did was shine the light and show you the "rope' (I know metaphor overload) you had to be willing to climb it for your self, I cannot make you climb it

HBD: Exactly...some days I feel like I just need to clarify that again. I'm not leaving my current because of us, I would do it anyway.

DT: I know lover, I wouldn't have it any other way

HBD: you and us, are just the icing on the cake

DT: Exactly Babydoll...







Now looking at this exchange between us, this is a common occurrence, we are always helping each other, not just in lifestyle but in life. I am proud to say I am completely in love with the whole person that is HBD, not just the sexy part ( well that is a great bonus). I want to thank you HBD for allowing me to love you, help you and nurture you. I am so very proud of the strides you are making and I will be here for you every step of the way, forever and a day!

~DT