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Showing posts with label HBD. Show all posts
Thursday, February 17, 2011
HNT.....a hopeful return
Its been sometime since we were able to get an HNT up, so I figured it was past time....so here you go a little peak
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Now I'm sure you've already been there, but just in case you haven't...
don't forget to stop by osbasso's and see all the rest of the HNT goodness!
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
SIr Sunday
From My Soapbox in the corner of the Internet...
Sir Sunday
It's been a long time...........
Hello all and welcome back to Sir Sundays.
As most of our regular readers have noticed HBD and I have been more than a little absent for a long stretch of time.
Well I am here to say we are back and stronger than ever, still working through the "evolution" of our relationship and even our D/s dynamic. We had come to a point where we were both feeling a bit "stalled" ... still madly in love with one another but we were not sure how to address our future... HBD had eluded to a change in her and that we had talked it out. I am glad to say I am proud of My Babydoll, the conversation was hard for her and she showed great courage. We have discussed and adjusted our path.
Not many of you know this as I don't recall it ever being in our blog before, the "official" anniversary of HBD becoming my Submissive is 5-9-09 and yes we are nearing it. Our official commitment which was blogged about is 7-22-09, and that brings me to one more date 4-13-10. That is the date HBD was Registered in the SLRN as an Owned and collared slave of Sir Die Tryin and in doing so she has become my slave. This has changed our dynamic in a direction that almost a year ago we had not seen but now openly embrace. HBD is still working on the transition mentally and we both realized when we first started talking and our relationship started we were both novices to the lifestyle, we had read a lot about it and had a lot of pre-conceived ideas and concepts about lifestyle that we have grown past or changed our minds on through the last year.
We will continue to grow in our path and enjoy each other learning as we go. And I have some really exciting news..... HBD is coming to me again for a quick visit and for those of you keeping score it has been since Dec 2 last year since we have touched one another.
She will be in my arms and my bonds in little less than 2 weeks. We are going to have an official collaring ...and of course lots of NSFW fun for us.... stay tuned loyal readers
~DT
Sir Sunday
It's been a long time...........
Hello all and welcome back to Sir Sundays.
As most of our regular readers have noticed HBD and I have been more than a little absent for a long stretch of time.
Well I am here to say we are back and stronger than ever, still working through the "evolution" of our relationship and even our D/s dynamic. We had come to a point where we were both feeling a bit "stalled" ... still madly in love with one another but we were not sure how to address our future... HBD had eluded to a change in her and that we had talked it out. I am glad to say I am proud of My Babydoll, the conversation was hard for her and she showed great courage. We have discussed and adjusted our path.
Not many of you know this as I don't recall it ever being in our blog before, the "official" anniversary of HBD becoming my Submissive is 5-9-09 and yes we are nearing it. Our official commitment which was blogged about is 7-22-09, and that brings me to one more date 4-13-10. That is the date HBD was Registered in the SLRN as an Owned and collared slave of Sir Die Tryin and in doing so she has become my slave. This has changed our dynamic in a direction that almost a year ago we had not seen but now openly embrace. HBD is still working on the transition mentally and we both realized when we first started talking and our relationship started we were both novices to the lifestyle, we had read a lot about it and had a lot of pre-conceived ideas and concepts about lifestyle that we have grown past or changed our minds on through the last year.
We will continue to grow in our path and enjoy each other learning as we go. And I have some really exciting news..... HBD is coming to me again for a quick visit and for those of you keeping score it has been since Dec 2 last year since we have touched one another.
She will be in my arms and my bonds in little less than 2 weeks. We are going to have an official collaring ...and of course lots of NSFW fun for us.... stay tuned loyal readers
~DT
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Sir Sunday
Sir Sunday,
Accounting for my Sins against HBD
As you all have read I have wronged the most important person in my world, the one who loves me completely and with every fiber of her being. I have damaged possibly beyond repair the most important aspect of our relationship, trust. I did this by promising, in a cowardly moment to do one thing, knowing for selfish reasons that I was not ready to follow through. In short, I lied. There is no excuse for this behavior and any explanation past “I lied” is a weak excuse, so I am not going to make any other than I lied plain and simple.
The last 10 days have been particularly rough on both of us due to the holidays and visitation of the FX’s. I knew things were bad, but until a few nights ago I didn’t truly know. HBD was ready to call it quits, she has been wounded deeply, and I know I am the cause.
Do I wish I had done things differently? Yes. Do I hope we can go forward? Yes. Do I think HBD is justified in being cautious in regards to my word? Yes.
As you have no doubt read in the post yesterday, HBD has at this point and against her fear, has given me another chance; I know this is based on her love for me. But I also know this is the start of a long cautious journey to return to where we once were. I have completely destroyed the trust of her Brat and even hurt her desire to submit. While these are a part of who we were, and until they return (if they return ever) will be missed they are not solely what define us or our relationship, HBD is my friend, my confidant, my partner, my lover, my sub, my brat, and in my heart my wife. As you can see by that list there is more to us.
HBD, while I know you have no reason to believe me past face value at this moment in our lives, I am making this vow to you, I have the patience to go the distance, I can’t think of a better partner than you for a long journey. I have never stopped loving you and will love you until I breathe my last breath. I treasure you and the gifts you have given me and I will diligently work to earn them back and keep them.
My dearest Brat, while I know you are in deep hiding and may never choose to trust me enough to come out to play, or even to give me a spirited “you can’t catch me, old man”.
I need to speak to you if you will listen. My dearest Brat, you showed yourself to me and we were just getting started, you were in the early stage of trusting me and I betrayed you. I am hoping with time, love and patience you might come back. I also was told to tell you, your friend the animal misses you.
~DT
Accounting for my Sins against HBD
As you all have read I have wronged the most important person in my world, the one who loves me completely and with every fiber of her being. I have damaged possibly beyond repair the most important aspect of our relationship, trust. I did this by promising, in a cowardly moment to do one thing, knowing for selfish reasons that I was not ready to follow through. In short, I lied. There is no excuse for this behavior and any explanation past “I lied” is a weak excuse, so I am not going to make any other than I lied plain and simple.
The last 10 days have been particularly rough on both of us due to the holidays and visitation of the FX’s. I knew things were bad, but until a few nights ago I didn’t truly know. HBD was ready to call it quits, she has been wounded deeply, and I know I am the cause.
Do I wish I had done things differently? Yes. Do I hope we can go forward? Yes. Do I think HBD is justified in being cautious in regards to my word? Yes.
As you have no doubt read in the post yesterday, HBD has at this point and against her fear, has given me another chance; I know this is based on her love for me. But I also know this is the start of a long cautious journey to return to where we once were. I have completely destroyed the trust of her Brat and even hurt her desire to submit. While these are a part of who we were, and until they return (if they return ever) will be missed they are not solely what define us or our relationship, HBD is my friend, my confidant, my partner, my lover, my sub, my brat, and in my heart my wife. As you can see by that list there is more to us.
HBD, while I know you have no reason to believe me past face value at this moment in our lives, I am making this vow to you, I have the patience to go the distance, I can’t think of a better partner than you for a long journey. I have never stopped loving you and will love you until I breathe my last breath. I treasure you and the gifts you have given me and I will diligently work to earn them back and keep them.
My dearest Brat, while I know you are in deep hiding and may never choose to trust me enough to come out to play, or even to give me a spirited “you can’t catch me, old man”.
I need to speak to you if you will listen. My dearest Brat, you showed yourself to me and we were just getting started, you were in the early stage of trusting me and I betrayed you. I am hoping with time, love and patience you might come back. I also was told to tell you, your friend the animal misses you.
~DT
Thursday, December 31, 2009
HNT - rope anyone?
I used to think I liked Chain, cold and hard. But then I found rope with DT and let me tell you I'm still drawn to chain but rope is my new love. Here is a shot from our last visit when I flew to New Jersey.
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don't forget to stop by osbasso's and see all the rest of the HNT goodness!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
What do you call her?
She said yes. She told him to do it. He was her husband....and while he did it she lay there and cried, praying it would be over soon, hate in her eyes. Had she said No, he would have done it anyway. (I was asked by my babydoll to proofread this post and it has stirred up some emotions and issues from my past so I feel I need to comment on this blog as well ~DT)
Is it rape?
(Yes it is .)
Rape is defined as
unlawful sexual activity and usually sexual intercourse carried out forcibly or under threat of injury against the will usually of a female or with a person who is beneath a certain age or incapable of valid consent
sexual assault is defined as
a statutory offense that provides that it is a crime to knowingly cause another person to engage in an unwanted sexual act by force or threat.
By force of threat...or under threat of injury.
So, what if you're arguing, he isn't violent...YET, but his previous patterns say he will be soon. And you tell him, fine do it you want it so bad just stick it in and get it over with. Then you lay there looking at him with hate in your eyes, letting him know just exactly how much you hate him. Is there a threat? Is that consent? Is it rape? sexual assault? none of the above?
(Yes it is just because he hasn't hit you YET doesn't mean he won't.)
What is it called when you have sex with your husband so that you won't have to argue with him, because that argument is going to be verbally abusive, demeaning, hateful, and just plain hell. What do you call that woman?
( If you are under the worry or thought of abuse, physical or mental and under duress use sex as a "distractionary" tactic, it is sex under duress or threat of abuse, So again I say yes.)
What do you call the woman who wakes up to find her husband on top of her, penetrating her, oblivious of the fact that she is asleep, not caring that she can't say yes? Only caring about his own base needs. His response to the tears afterward? I couldn't help it you are just so sexy. Is she just being sexy? Is that the price she pays for being attractive to men?
(You would call her the victim of a RAPE, even married it is still non-consensual sex)
What do you call the woman that says yes, but as the act progresses she says no, it hurts it's not what she wants...please stop. Don't do this, it hurts please stop, with tears in her eyes, pleading. Only for him to continue on? Is she a victim? Did she ask for it? Is she being a tease? And the next night when he wants it again, and she refuses only to be met with a guilt trip about his needs, and how she is so beautiful, so sexy, he loves her so much. Would it just be easier if she were ugly?
(What kind of animal does this to a person he "professes" to love? I understand the heat of the moment, but if she says stop it hurts and is crying, you are needing to stop. )
Does a wife even have the right to say no? Isn't it her duty to serve her husband? Wifely duty and all that? What is it if the woman says no because it is her duty as a wife. Does she even have the right to say NO? And if verbally beaten into the position where she does it because its frankly just easier to do it and get it over with than it is to fight it? To just say yes when every cell in your body says no I don't want this.
(Wifely duty, even the letter of most "Christian vows" doesn't spell out that she must "have marital relations or else" her sexual duties to her husband stop at her consent, it is her body and as such, she can say "no". Men if she is saying no, rather than get pissed off and demand she performs "marital" or worse taking them, find out why she doesn't or won't, listen and try to fix it, even if you need outside help)
How does this woman say NO when he threatens to take the children and never let her see them again? To have her removed from "his" house? To shut off the phone, Internet, satellite, water, electric, take away her car keys and physically disable the car as well? What if she can't support herself and her children outside of the marriage? WHAT DO YOU CALL IT WHEN SHE SAYS YES????
(In my opinion, this is the LOWEST form of mental abuse and should be a criminal offense, the denial or threat of denial of basic necessities. Again this is "consent under duress or threat' and should be prosecuted as rape)
(To the woman who has endured this but not been hurt enough to get a ride in an ambulance or worse a hearse, I would call her a "survivor". Please explain to me how in most states in this glorious country a woman can get help, assistance to get away BEFORE she is beaten, battered or killed. But in the MAJORITY of the states in this SHAMEFUL country, the divorce and domestic violence codes are so old and backward that even a trip to the hospital might not even be enough to get her the help she needs to escape, to live, to survive. I know you are asking what do I know of domestic violence? What do I know of Rape? As a man, I have been married twice and never perpetrated "marital rights" on either of my wives, and the big one is my own mother was beaten to death in according to the police "a random act of "senseless" violence", what that says is a PC way of saying she was murdered when she defended herself against a rape. So with that view into the dark corners of my soul, you can see why my emotions are so strong and raw on this topic. In closing, this country needs a complete overhaul of the divorce and domestic violence standards and penal codes that is set to a NATIONAL standard and LISTENS to victims as much as the perpetrator.
thank you for reading this and if you have the ability to make a change please do before it is someone you know or love that this happens to.
WHAT DO YOU CALL
THE WOMAN THAT LIVES ALL OF THIS EVERY DAY?
I call her ME.
You see, sometimes, it is simply survival. There is no leaving, the reasons are too many, too varied, too complex. So, you stay and you keep doing it. You hate yourself for it, you are dirty, used, broken. You try to be unattractive, you just hope to survive to live another day.
It wasn't supposed to be about ME.........
Is it rape?
(Yes it is .)
Rape is defined as
unlawful sexual activity and usually sexual intercourse carried out forcibly or under threat of injury against the will usually of a female or with a person who is beneath a certain age or incapable of valid consent
sexual assault is defined as
a statutory offense that provides that it is a crime to knowingly cause another person to engage in an unwanted sexual act by force or threat.
By force of threat...or under threat of injury.
So, what if you're arguing, he isn't violent...YET, but his previous patterns say he will be soon. And you tell him, fine do it you want it so bad just stick it in and get it over with. Then you lay there looking at him with hate in your eyes, letting him know just exactly how much you hate him. Is there a threat? Is that consent? Is it rape? sexual assault? none of the above?
(Yes it is just because he hasn't hit you YET doesn't mean he won't.)
What is it called when you have sex with your husband so that you won't have to argue with him, because that argument is going to be verbally abusive, demeaning, hateful, and just plain hell. What do you call that woman?
( If you are under the worry or thought of abuse, physical or mental and under duress use sex as a "distractionary" tactic, it is sex under duress or threat of abuse, So again I say yes.)
What do you call the woman who wakes up to find her husband on top of her, penetrating her, oblivious of the fact that she is asleep, not caring that she can't say yes? Only caring about his own base needs. His response to the tears afterward? I couldn't help it you are just so sexy. Is she just being sexy? Is that the price she pays for being attractive to men?
(You would call her the victim of a RAPE, even married it is still non-consensual sex)
What do you call the woman that says yes, but as the act progresses she says no, it hurts it's not what she wants...please stop. Don't do this, it hurts please stop, with tears in her eyes, pleading. Only for him to continue on? Is she a victim? Did she ask for it? Is she being a tease? And the next night when he wants it again, and she refuses only to be met with a guilt trip about his needs, and how she is so beautiful, so sexy, he loves her so much. Would it just be easier if she were ugly?
(What kind of animal does this to a person he "professes" to love? I understand the heat of the moment, but if she says stop it hurts and is crying, you are needing to stop. )
Does a wife even have the right to say no? Isn't it her duty to serve her husband? Wifely duty and all that? What is it if the woman says no because it is her duty as a wife. Does she even have the right to say NO? And if verbally beaten into the position where she does it because its frankly just easier to do it and get it over with than it is to fight it? To just say yes when every cell in your body says no I don't want this.
(Wifely duty, even the letter of most "Christian vows" doesn't spell out that she must "have marital relations or else" her sexual duties to her husband stop at her consent, it is her body and as such, she can say "no". Men if she is saying no, rather than get pissed off and demand she performs "marital" or worse taking them, find out why she doesn't or won't, listen and try to fix it, even if you need outside help)
How does this woman say NO when he threatens to take the children and never let her see them again? To have her removed from "his" house? To shut off the phone, Internet, satellite, water, electric, take away her car keys and physically disable the car as well? What if she can't support herself and her children outside of the marriage? WHAT DO YOU CALL IT WHEN SHE SAYS YES????
(In my opinion, this is the LOWEST form of mental abuse and should be a criminal offense, the denial or threat of denial of basic necessities. Again this is "consent under duress or threat' and should be prosecuted as rape)
(To the woman who has endured this but not been hurt enough to get a ride in an ambulance or worse a hearse, I would call her a "survivor". Please explain to me how in most states in this glorious country a woman can get help, assistance to get away BEFORE she is beaten, battered or killed. But in the MAJORITY of the states in this SHAMEFUL country, the divorce and domestic violence codes are so old and backward that even a trip to the hospital might not even be enough to get her the help she needs to escape, to live, to survive. I know you are asking what do I know of domestic violence? What do I know of Rape? As a man, I have been married twice and never perpetrated "marital rights" on either of my wives, and the big one is my own mother was beaten to death in according to the police "a random act of "senseless" violence", what that says is a PC way of saying she was murdered when she defended herself against a rape. So with that view into the dark corners of my soul, you can see why my emotions are so strong and raw on this topic. In closing, this country needs a complete overhaul of the divorce and domestic violence standards and penal codes that is set to a NATIONAL standard and LISTENS to victims as much as the perpetrator.
thank you for reading this and if you have the ability to make a change please do before it is someone you know or love that this happens to.
WHAT DO YOU CALL
THE WOMAN THAT LIVES ALL OF THIS EVERY DAY?
I call her ME.
You see, sometimes, it is simply survival. There is no leaving, the reasons are too many, too varied, too complex. So, you stay and you keep doing it. You hate yourself for it, you are dirty, used, broken. You try to be unattractive, you just hope to survive to live another day.
It wasn't supposed to be about ME.........
Sunday, October 4, 2009
SIR SUNDAY - 10 things
Sir Sunday – Ten things-The Dom edition.
The List……10 Things I love about His_Baby_Doll and 10 things I despise about my FX
Let me start from “my soapbox in the corner of the internet”
The things I love about HBD in no particular order;
1. Her smile, and not just her smile but how her face and eyes light up when she is happy and truly smiling. I do have photographic evidence of this and no I am not going to share, yes I am a selfish bastard
2. Her complete and utter love for me and the fact my complete love of her is accepted and returned.
3. The complete open and honest relationship we have, it makes the distance at least a little more bearable and it is the core block on which our whole relationship is built, as I often say “without our open and honest we wouldn't work”
4. I know even if we were “vanilla” we would love each other as strongly as we do right now, and it continues to grow every minute of every day.
5. We have very similar and complementing “kinks” and have genuine interests in the same topics and “fetishes”. Our excitement to learn is only limited by our imaginations.
6. Her compassion and ability to show love is the best I have ever had the pleasure of receiving and knowing.
7. Even though she will disagree with me I feel she is the sexiest woman I know and have ever had love me in return.
8. The BEST lover I have ever had!!!! (Enough said).
9. An incredible sense of humor that is always there even when we are being serious a joke or a side topic can pop in and out in full stride at full speed. HBD has a sharp wit and the intelligence to back it up.
10. The complete trust in me in all aspects of our lives.
The 10 things I despise about my FX. In no particular order;
1. Her complete lack of trust in me and my abilities. In every aspect of life.
2. The fact which has been proven time and time again that I am “not enough of a provider for the lifestyle she expects”
3. Her Temper and her “razor tongue” which when we argue and fight has a tendency to cut quick, cut deep and cut often.
4. How after vilifying my EX about taking me for granted for as long as she did is now doing the exact same thing and when confronted justifies the acts with the statement “when your EX did it she didn't love you”, the FX has a strange way of showing love.
5. Her lack of patience with important issues, her constant pushing of issues always causes more hurt than results.
6. When she feels stressed or cornered, whether or not she truly is, verbally she goes off on the people who are closest to her, further alienating and hurting the ones she professes to love.
7. Her recent inability to make a decision and stick to it since the boys were born is both frustrating and infuriating.
8. The level of financial ruin I have been pushed into (in the name of love) based on the level of purchases I needed to make to “even the score between her and my ex”
9. How there is no level of communication except “superficial” and “argue”
10. When during the 3rd trimester of her complicated pregnancy I had to stop having sex with her for her own health and safety. She tells me I have destroyed our intimacy and I need to “re court her and woo her back” and I then spent the next 4 months proving to her that I did love her and desire her, to no avail, I was still taken for granted and I told her what she was doing to me and it was met with cold indifference.
So now that that is out of my system let the healing begin, and this can serve as a reminder to me about all the wrongs in my last marriage and keep me and HBD from falling into the same patterns.
The List……10 Things I love about His_Baby_Doll and 10 things I despise about my FX
Let me start from “my soapbox in the corner of the internet”
The things I love about HBD in no particular order;
1. Her smile, and not just her smile but how her face and eyes light up when she is happy and truly smiling. I do have photographic evidence of this and no I am not going to share, yes I am a selfish bastard
2. Her complete and utter love for me and the fact my complete love of her is accepted and returned.
3. The complete open and honest relationship we have, it makes the distance at least a little more bearable and it is the core block on which our whole relationship is built, as I often say “without our open and honest we wouldn't work”
4. I know even if we were “vanilla” we would love each other as strongly as we do right now, and it continues to grow every minute of every day.
5. We have very similar and complementing “kinks” and have genuine interests in the same topics and “fetishes”. Our excitement to learn is only limited by our imaginations.
6. Her compassion and ability to show love is the best I have ever had the pleasure of receiving and knowing.
7. Even though she will disagree with me I feel she is the sexiest woman I know and have ever had love me in return.
8. The BEST lover I have ever had!!!! (Enough said).
9. An incredible sense of humor that is always there even when we are being serious a joke or a side topic can pop in and out in full stride at full speed. HBD has a sharp wit and the intelligence to back it up.
10. The complete trust in me in all aspects of our lives.
The 10 things I despise about my FX. In no particular order;
1. Her complete lack of trust in me and my abilities. In every aspect of life.
2. The fact which has been proven time and time again that I am “not enough of a provider for the lifestyle she expects”
3. Her Temper and her “razor tongue” which when we argue and fight has a tendency to cut quick, cut deep and cut often.
4. How after vilifying my EX about taking me for granted for as long as she did is now doing the exact same thing and when confronted justifies the acts with the statement “when your EX did it she didn't love you”, the FX has a strange way of showing love.
5. Her lack of patience with important issues, her constant pushing of issues always causes more hurt than results.
6. When she feels stressed or cornered, whether or not she truly is, verbally she goes off on the people who are closest to her, further alienating and hurting the ones she professes to love.
7. Her recent inability to make a decision and stick to it since the boys were born is both frustrating and infuriating.
8. The level of financial ruin I have been pushed into (in the name of love) based on the level of purchases I needed to make to “even the score between her and my ex”
9. How there is no level of communication except “superficial” and “argue”
10. When during the 3rd trimester of her complicated pregnancy I had to stop having sex with her for her own health and safety. She tells me I have destroyed our intimacy and I need to “re court her and woo her back” and I then spent the next 4 months proving to her that I did love her and desire her, to no avail, I was still taken for granted and I told her what she was doing to me and it was met with cold indifference.
So now that that is out of my system let the healing begin, and this can serve as a reminder to me about all the wrongs in my last marriage and keep me and HBD from falling into the same patterns.
I love, cherish and truly desire you Babydoll.
Please marry me and spend the rest of our days together, happy and loved.
I love you, Truly, Madly, Deeply.
~DT
Please marry me and spend the rest of our days together, happy and loved.
I love you, Truly, Madly, Deeply.
~DT
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Sir Sunday - Back to the west
Sir Sunday
Back to the West……..
Ranting, raving, and musing from “my soapbox in the corner of the internet”
As any of you have read the blog lately, you no doubt have noticed the countdown ticker in the top left. Yes, it is time for me to go and visit HBD again! We promise to take pictures and blog about our deviantly fun times.
So with the tickets bought and schedules arranged the discussion has moved to the actual trip. We are discussing our goals for the trip, our needs, and our desires, all to fit in our limited time together. HBD wants to claim her bragging rights again, and who am I to stop that, it is a great start to a visit. We have both expressed in very graphic terms described the more animal desires. Then there is the rope….. HBD is really in for it this time I am feeling a lot more comfortable in tying her up after recapping the first time in Denver and my looking around for more shibari knots to use with her. There are the Showers and snuggling But we have also discussed a few more vanilla pursuits, like an evening out, catching a movie, more mundane everyday life things.
These things are part of the reason I love HBD, we communicate and fit well together, her desires are met and she meets and exceeds my desires on a regular basis.
I am sure this trip will be nothing short of epic, and the stuff blog posts are made of.
Thanks for taking the time to read this and we will be reporting back around the end of October with our exploits.
I love you Babydoll and cannot wait until we are together again, Loving, Touching, Squeezing……each other….. (Sorry to any Journey fans out there).
~DT
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Sir Sunday- Back on my "Soap Box"
Sir Sunday
Rants and ravings from my soapbox in the corner of the internet.
I know it has been a while since I have been up here on my soapbox, it has been too long. But as you all know there has been a lot of life-changing events in both my and HBD’s lives. There is no need to recap them all, but it had taken both HBD's and my desire to write for a bit and due to security concerns we have been forced underground and private for now. But now we are slowly coming back to the blog and our e-friends.
I had a different topic in mind when I sat down to write this post but like is usually the case I seem to have abandoned the original topic for whatever seems to come pouring out of my brain.
These last 4 or so weeks have been complete and utter hell for HBD and me, between her FX being home for 3 weekends in a row and his unpredictable moods, (which I swear he is on drugs) and my FX and her incessant crying and whining about how bad her life is. Her FX has taken to calling me on the phone and trying to “get to know the man that makes his wife happy”.(wtf) A lame attempt at trying to control the situation, as we are trying to convince him that we are working on a “poly” relationship, this is just to try and keep him calm and HBD safe. He is constantly flip-flopping back and forth about making it work to calling me and texting me to tell me HBD is all mine and he hopes we are happy. (How many times does he have to do that before I can say “dude are you serious this time?”) This has to stop eventually …right?
Well, I know this is a short recap and gripe fest, but I have to start somewhere to get back on the blogging track and this seemed like as good a place as any.
Now I would like to put a couple of Poems I recently wrote for HBD here, for her and your reading pleasure.
With you...
When I'm with you,
Eternity is a step away,
My love continues to grow,
With each passing day.
This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
How much I love you...
You’ll never really know.
You bring joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
With each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.
Whenever we say goodbye,
Whenever we part,
Know I hold you dearly,
Deep inside my heart.
So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever and Always,
I Will Love You."
Need you
I love you more than all the stars in the sky.
I love you more as each moment passes us by.
I love you more with every breath I take.
I love you more with each promise we make.
I need you like a flower needs the rain.
I need you for you can wash away my pain.
I need you more each day
I need you for you are so wonderful, in every single way.
I miss you more than ever now.
I miss you because I really need you somehow.
I miss you and your touch.
I miss you for to me, you mean so much.
I want you to caress my lips the way you always do.
I want you to look into my eyes and see my love for you.
I want you to hold me close to your heart.
I want you to know that I love you, need you, miss you and want you
And I have for every single moment, right from the start.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post from my soapbox in this corner of the internet.
HBD you know I love you, I NEED you, and desire only you, you are my one and only for the rest of my life, you are truly my better half.
~DT
Rants and ravings from my soapbox in the corner of the internet.
I know it has been a while since I have been up here on my soapbox, it has been too long. But as you all know there has been a lot of life-changing events in both my and HBD’s lives. There is no need to recap them all, but it had taken both HBD's and my desire to write for a bit and due to security concerns we have been forced underground and private for now. But now we are slowly coming back to the blog and our e-friends.
I had a different topic in mind when I sat down to write this post but like is usually the case I seem to have abandoned the original topic for whatever seems to come pouring out of my brain.
These last 4 or so weeks have been complete and utter hell for HBD and me, between her FX being home for 3 weekends in a row and his unpredictable moods, (which I swear he is on drugs) and my FX and her incessant crying and whining about how bad her life is. Her FX has taken to calling me on the phone and trying to “get to know the man that makes his wife happy”.(wtf) A lame attempt at trying to control the situation, as we are trying to convince him that we are working on a “poly” relationship, this is just to try and keep him calm and HBD safe. He is constantly flip-flopping back and forth about making it work to calling me and texting me to tell me HBD is all mine and he hopes we are happy. (How many times does he have to do that before I can say “dude are you serious this time?”) This has to stop eventually …right?
Well, I know this is a short recap and gripe fest, but I have to start somewhere to get back on the blogging track and this seemed like as good a place as any.
Now I would like to put a couple of Poems I recently wrote for HBD here, for her and your reading pleasure.
With you...
When I'm with you,
Eternity is a step away,
My love continues to grow,
With each passing day.
This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
How much I love you...
You’ll never really know.
You bring joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
With each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.
Whenever we say goodbye,
Whenever we part,
Know I hold you dearly,
Deep inside my heart.
So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever and Always,
I Will Love You."
Need you
I love you more than all the stars in the sky.
I love you more as each moment passes us by.
I love you more with every breath I take.
I love you more with each promise we make.
I need you like a flower needs the rain.
I need you for you can wash away my pain.
I need you more each day
I need you for you are so wonderful, in every single way.
I miss you more than ever now.
I miss you because I really need you somehow.
I miss you and your touch.
I miss you for to me, you mean so much.
I want you to caress my lips the way you always do.
I want you to look into my eyes and see my love for you.
I want you to hold me close to your heart.
I want you to know that I love you, need you, miss you and want you
And I have for every single moment, right from the start.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post from my soapbox in this corner of the internet.
HBD you know I love you, I NEED you, and desire only you, you are my one and only for the rest of my life, you are truly my better half.
~DT
Sunday, August 9, 2009
We Interrupt this story with a reality break !!!..... AGAIN!!!!!!!!
Sir Sunday
We interrupt this story with a reality break !!!..... AGAIN!!!!!!!!
Hello again, it must be Sunday again because here I am “on my soapbox in this corner of the internet”. I know today is to a much smaller audience as we recently had to go “underground” and “private” for a bit as we regroup from a bit of a “Reality check”. As you all read in the last post, HBD's FX found the blog,. And luckily for us, the combination of his confrontational nature and his low IQ kept HBD a little safe from him finding out the WHOLE story. (He couldn't get past HBD's sexy pictures from the last HNT). This has truly confirmed in my mind that he is truly just a walking penis, with no cares for HBD except for the express use of her body for his own pleasure. As HBD and I have full disclosure about all things past and present, I am at least familiar with his “shortcomings” in the role of the lover. This latest tirade from the FX is another in a long line of episodes that have me apologizing for Men as a whole.
I had asked HBD earlier if things in her marriage had ever been “good” at one point, (from being married twice myself I know at one point both of my marriages had been good, then through life and personal growth and atrophy things fell into disrepair). Here is a little transcript:
HBD:.....when things were "good" between us, well let's face it he never was really in one place long enough to make connections
DT: true enough, how long did things stay good?
HBD: honestly? good, or just my perception of good?
DT: honestly
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HBD: My perception of good, mmmm, until about a year and a half ago.........truly good......never
DT: I am sorry that your marriage was never "good"...
HBD: Don't be. I didn't realize it wasn't, in my mind it was great.
HBD: I just didn't see the wrongs in it
DT: I know but on discovery, there has to be some regret
HBD: Yeah, there is. But on the other hand, I realize I had to go through that to be where I am now. Some times the reward outweighs the regret. And if I dwell on that regret I mentally put myself back into being beat down.
DT: well I won't let you go back there, lover...
HBD: I know, and I Thank You for that. You've pulled me back out of that hole, its kinda funny to say that I'm not leaving this marriage and the hell I live in for you, I am leaving it for me. But then to turn around and say that I never would have done it without you. It seems to be a contradiction of terms.
DT: All I did was shine the light and show you the "rope' (I know metaphor overload) you had to be willing to climb it for your self, I cannot make you climb it
HBD: Exactly...some days I feel like I just need to clarify that again. I'm not leaving my current because of us, I would do it anyway.
DT: I know lover, I wouldn't have it any other way
HBD: you and us, are just the icing on the cake
DT: Exactly Babydoll...
Now looking at this exchange between us, this is a common occurrence, we are always helping each other, not just in lifestyle but in life. I am proud to say I am completely in love with the whole person that is HBD, not just the sexy part ( well that is a great bonus). I want to thank you HBD for allowing me to love you, help you and nurture you. I am so very proud of the strides you are making and I will be here for you every step of the way, forever and a day!
~DT
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