And not in a good way either!
I'm so tired, physically and emotionally. This roller coaster I call life has turned into a nightmare, one I'm afraid will never end, or if it does it will end badly. I don't know how I ever thought it would end well....easy you might say. It won't.
The days are filled with a plethora of changing emotions, thoughts, outbursts...personalities all wrapped up in the body of my FX. I can never tell what personality will come out next. Will it be the kind caring man that wants to make a Poly relationship work? Will it be the vile hateful man that only wants to cut me with his words? Will it be the jealous angry man that is so very unpredictable who only wants to crush me, break me, and? Or, will it be the crying confused man that only wants to play guilt trips and word games to try and destroy me? Who will it be?
So far, all day he has been the kind caring man. But what will I find the next time I answer the phone?
