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SIr Sunday

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Sir Sunday

It's been a long time...........


Hello all and welcome back to Sir Sundays.

As most of our regular readers have noticed HBD and I have been more than a little absent for a long stretch of time.
Well I am here to say we are back and stronger than ever, still working through the "evolution" of our relationship and even our D/s dynamic. We had come to a point where we were both feeling a bit "stalled" ... still madly in love with one another but we were not sure how to address our future... HBD had eluded to a change in her and that we had talked it out. I am glad to say I am proud of My Babydoll, the conversation was hard for her and she showed great courage. We have discussed and adjusted our path.
Not many of you know this as I don't recall it ever being in our blog before, the "official" anniversary of HBD becoming my Submissive is 5-9-09 and yes we are nearing it. Our official commitment which was blogged about is 7-22-09, and that brings me to one more date 4-13-10. That is the date HBD was Registered in the SLRN as an Owned and collared slave of Sir Die Tryin and in doing so she has become my slave. This has changed our dynamic in a direction that almost a year ago we had not seen but now openly embrace. HBD is still working on the transition mentally and we both realized when we first started talking and our relationship started we were both novices to the lifestyle, we had read a lot about it and had a lot of pre-conceived ideas and concepts about lifestyle that we have grown past or changed our minds on through the last year.
We will continue to grow in our path and enjoy each other learning as we go. And I have some really exciting news..... HBD is coming to me again for a quick visit and for those of you keeping score it has been since Dec 2 last year since we have touched one another.
She will be in my arms and my bonds in little less than 2 weeks. We are going to have an official collaring ...and of course lots of NSFW fun for us.... stay tuned loyal readers

~DT

And we talked....

It was a long talk, full of fear and hesitation. I knew what I had to tell DT was big for us. It had the potential to make us better, or completely destroy us. That I couldn't handle, if I did something to harm my relationship with DT then I would never be able to forgive myself.

Thankfully I can say that he took it in great stride. And we are going to be just fine.

Now.....on with our journey.

Who am I....what am I?

Things in my life are so muddled and chaotic right now. I feel like my world has slipped off its axis, and is now hurtling itself off into the galaxy....what scares me the most about this. Is that I have NO control whatsoever on where I go or where I land. It strikes me as odd, how I have to have this control over everything. But when it comes down to it, I would gladly relinquish it all over to DT.

I've had to take time to just stop and think about all of this, and I'm in full-on denial about many things. So, I let the things I can think about come in, let them distract me. It has been refreshing at times and disturbing at others. One thing though is that I come out feeling like I know me just a little bit better. And I realize that I'm changing....still.

Those changes scare me. I'm always afraid that I will change so much that I am not the woman DT fell in love with. That we will not grow together. Some of the changes I've already seen he has been fine with. He embraced them, hell he saw it in me before I did and says it's not a change at all, it's just the real me coming out. And this again is a change that I feel is the real me coming out. But one I don't think he's seen, and one I'm afraid he will not embrace so readily.

These are the things I want with him...

I'm having a rough time...with my life, with my submission, with my hope.

So, I've been thinking that I need to put together a list, of all the things that I have to look forward to when we are together.

I want to...
1. Be there when he comes home. With a smile on my face, take his coat, take his shoes, give him a drink and spend the evening with him.

2. Cook dinner for him, fill his plate, sit down at the table and enjoy his company. Listen to him talk about his day, sharing every up and down.

3. Sit on the couch and watch TV after the kids have gone to bed. Kissing, and holding, loving each other.

4. Sit at his feet while he's working on the computer, his hand on my head, stroking my head.

5. Going to bed together, curling up together, just feeling the touch of his skin against mine, his arms around me holding me...protecting me.

6. Waking up to his kisses, not to mention the morning sex.

7. Holding hands as we walk through the store, giggling and laughing while we buy groceries, chit-chatting and laughing as we people watch and window shop at the mall.

8. Bring him tools, and beverages as needed when he's working on the car, in the yard, around the house.

9. Going to the zoo, museums, movies with my kids. Just being a family.

10. Really talk to him, looking him in the eyes, seeing in his soul while we share our hopes, dreams, wants, and desires.