Recently I have read several submissive bloggers who are struggling with their service and submission outside the bedroom. These blogs drew my attention because frankly, I find myself struggling with this myself. I am a submissive woman, I am a slave at heart. But I am also a mother at home, a manager at work, and a small business owner to boot.
How can I be all these people, the leader, the mentor, the boss...and still be his owned property? What things can I do to continue to serve him, and not feel that I am putting aside who I really am? How do you balance strength and submission?
I've struggled so deeply with this, that I've come to question my own submission. And that kind of internal battle is one I don't bode well it. It's chaotic, and distracting from the rest of my days. Perhaps its because I feel that I'm going it alone. DT doesn't have the same conflicts. No one at work knows who or what I am outside of work. My friends don't know about my lifestyle choices, so here I sit and I search the internet. What do I come up with? The same thoughts, people saying they can't be submissive outside the bedroom because of life. That can't be the answer, there has to be a way.
For now, I just continue to move forward in the bedroom. Waiting patiently for Wed when we have the day alone and we are able to be Master and slave. I know this isn't the end all be all, I know there is a way to balance submission with day to day life. And I am determined to find it.
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