10 Things I Hate About You - sub addition

Recently my oldest daughter has been obsessed with this movie. Now I will admit its a cute one for the teens.


So, inspired by this I decided it was time to do my top ten list for my loving Sir Die_tryin. And then again, a top ten for hating my FX. Hate is a strong word, but I must say that right now its the only word I have for him. Now, let's add to this that a few weeks ago I asked my DT to make a post about the feelings he was having about his FX. He didn't go anywhere near where I wanted him to go, but that's ok it was his therapy so who am I to dictate. You can read his post on our blog from yesterday.


10 Things I Hate About You - FX addition

1. The way he can't ever say anything positive about me without following it with a plethora of negatives. You look good, but your butt could really be more toned, and your belly is kinda soft.

2. The way he fights. Mean, nasty, dirty, aggressive, violent.

3. The way he uses my body for his pleasure. This may sound odd coming from a sub like me, but when he uses me it's not the same. It's only about sex, not me, not him, not love, not submission....just sex. And let me just say that even when your married to someone - No should still mean No.

4. The way he has beaten and belittled me until I feel fat, ugly, worthless, and a complete failure. Oh but wait this is the same man that has this conversation with me...Him: I love you Me: you only love me for my body Him: yeah, and the problem with that is?

5. The way he has the power to make me cry still! Or maybe this something I hate about me. That I let him have this power.

6. His mental instability. How he can go from angry to happy to apologetic to cruel and hateful all in the blink of an eye.

7. How cruel he is to my children, and yet has the most patient loving demeanor with our two.

8. The way he says I'm talking down to him because I use big words like negate, positive affirmation, facetious, and quantify. Did you know the fact that I know more than 4 letter words makes me a know it all?

9. HYGIENE!!! Enough said.

10. The fact that he can do as he pleases and expects me to just accept it and roll with it, but if I even hint at doing the same I'm a horrible person....even a whore.







And now......

10 Things I Hate About You...errr WAIT, 10 Things I love about DT


1. The way he makes me laugh. No matter how dark and down I am, no matter how lost I feel, he can always make me smile.

2. The way he loves me. This man loves me unconditionally, with no strings attached. As we both say truly madly deeply completely always and forever....and a day.

3. His eyes, the way they shine with love when he looks at me, the way they sparkle when he laughs, the way they open up to his soul, be it good or bad.

4. His touch, no one has ever touched me the way he has. Soft and rough, smooth and harsh, tender and commanding.

5. The way we have so many things in common, both vanilla and kink. Sex, food, parenting, cars, computers, games, and so many other things.

6. The way we can spend hours talking, and never run out of things to say. There is a comfortable ease between us.

7. The way we fit together. He is an amazingly sexy man. His body fits against mine in passion and in sleep as if made for mine.

8. His kiss, oh dear lord his kiss!! The feel of his lips claiming mine is enough to stop me dead in my tracks.

9. His willingness to dominate and control me. To take me to places I have only dreamed of going, to challenge me and push my boundaries while always having my well being as his utmost priority.

10. The way he takes care of and spoils me. He has sent me coffee, shirts, a ring, and that's not to mention the emotional and psychological support he has given me. This man never ceases to stop giving.

and for good measure...

11. The most important thing.....

He loves and trusts me as his friend, his confidant, his partner, his lover, his sub, and his future wife.