Protocols, or the lack thereof

Ever since Die_tryin and I started down the course of this Master/slave life we have said that once this or that happens things will change and we'll be able to get on track to where we want to be.

When we started out together we were both living with other people, 1600 some miles away from each other. First, we said things would change when his EX was out of the house, but I was still with my EX so that put a damper on things as well. Once I moved out we thought things would get a little better, and I'm sure they did. But all in all, there wasn't much change. We were still 1600 miles away, and both of us were working. There were a couple little things that we did, nightly tuck-ins, and morning wake up calls just to name a couple. Finally, Die_tryin moved out to be with me; this was it, we were going to be able to move forward right??? right?? Wrong. DT didn't live with me, he had his own apartment and spent nights there. It was worse than having him across the country. We continued with our good nights and our wake-ups. I brought him dinner most nights, and when I worked at night he would cook for me. Again, we both said that things would get better when we were together full time. Now, here we are. DT has his apartment still although the last time he spent the night there was months ago. The last time he was there for more than a few minutes was still WEEKS ago. So, why do I still feel like something is missing?

We have no direction. No protocols, no expectations, I'm his sub, his slave, his wife in all but name. And still, I feel like all I am missing something. The good nights have slipped to the sidelines, the wake ups are there in a different way. I make his plate at dinner, but other than that.....

So now, I'm off and running reading and researching protocol. Maybe we'll stumble upon something that sends us in the right direction. I can only hope that we can pull ourselves out of this slump soon.