After my last post, I spent quite a bit of time talking to Die_tryin. About us, and where we are, what we need, and how to get there. Our communication has been suffering because of being together. Having him in the house with me, so close, it's wonderful. I enjoy all our time together, even if it's just us sitting at our computers doing our own thing. Unfortunately, the deeper communication that we built our relationship on has fallen to the wayside.
I did give my collar to DT for safekeeping, I just do not feel in that state of mind right now. I have some things to work through, with DT and within myself. During our talk, DT admits to having had some blocks that cause him to hold back. And that has been an injustice to us both. I feel just as responsible for this as I've not been more open in my expectations.
We've agreed that we do want this lifestyle and that we will work to get back where we want to be.
In the days since that last post, I have seen a change in DT and that has brought about a change in me. The kids make spankings and other pain-inducing corrections out of the question. DT has decided that a few well-placed bites on my back that respond to pressure are in order. We've added a couple things to our nightly rituals that have brought me closer to him and my position in this life together.
I've put my whole heart into this, and I only hope that we are able to pull this off. I know it won't be easy, but I'm willing to give it a go...
wish us luck
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