As you may...or may not know, Die_tryin and I, are married - but not to each other. He has been married to a very vanilla for a little over 2 years (a light swat on the butt and she's whining about why do you want to huuuuurt me), and I am married to a narcissistic abuser what I'm sure would say he wants to be a dominant if I would let him in on my desires. (The danger beacons are flashing)
This past week Die_Tryin was out of town for a couple days because of a training session for work. We had amazing nights on the phone lasting into the wee hours. Falling asleep to each others voices, sharing our hopes, dreams, and expectations. Then, he had to return home. Thursday night to be exact, so it was a short night for us a little chatting online but nothing like the nights we had just had. The nights that we couldn't get enough of. It was a painful thing for us both, his SO was angry and demanding as he drove home, but when he returned to the house she pretended that nothing had happened. How she thought that was going to improve things between them, neither of us can say.
Friday, he returned to work and found himself the recipient of several calls from her alluding to the fact she had a "reconnect" night planned for them. To say that this was a futile effort on her part is an understatement. But alas she tried. And he, well he had to play along - and will continue until he can remove himself from this complication in a manner that relieves some of his sense of responsibility.
Where did this leave me? Well, it left me alone last night, knowing that he was with her and that yes he is married to her, and yes he would have sex with her. And that is very painful for this submissive's heart.
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