After much Pause, A return to Sir Sunday...

                  It's been a long time, too long, since I have sat at the computer with the express purpose of blogging my private, Our private lives. The life we keep from the kids, family, friends, co-workers, and neighbors. A life few outsides of those who live it could comprehend, sure you could argue that BDSM or SM is becoming mainstream with the writing and movies along the 50 shades vein.

               
                So you ask where am I going with this? When you decide this is the lifestyle that you cannot deny, your true inner self, you find yourself at conflict with societal norms (assuming you are trying to live under the radar). While in a large city or metropolis it is easier to achieve social anonymity, in a small city or rural setting the anonymity is a harder thing to keep. HBD and I joke openly about "welcome to our town where everyone knows your business before it is your business". As absurd as it sounds it is completely true. I am going to confess as our children get older they notice more, question more and this worried me, as I don't want to influence or set a stigma about relationships for two impressionable youngsters, who might not understand the dynamics of HBD's and my relationship.  Especially as their biological father was a verbal and mental abuser on the verge of going physical before we met and she escaped from him. To them, the discipline and power exchange could look like the mental abuse their father perpetrated and continues to attempt on HBD and sometimes even them. The younger often inserts them-self into conversations that are not their place, to "protect" HBD for what is perceived as an abusive situation. This messes with the M/s dynamic as it adds delay for correction and interaction and this, unfortunately, led to my failure as  I could not find my way around it mentally. As you, our returning and possibly new readers will learn we are getting back to the lifestyle. As the past couple of years have had their ups and downs, we have weathered the storm and have re-tasked our resolve to one another to make this work. Will there be bumps, probably, will there be challenges? definitely! But we welcome you to follow our journey through Love and Submission.