hoarding...

Have you ever seen Hoarding: Buried Alive? I used to watch that show, for reassurance that I was NOT like that. My life wasn't that bad. There was always someone worse. I could look at images like this







and I could say, thats not me! I don't hoard, I just don't have the time to keep up with what needs done. I'm not a hoarder, I just don't have any help. My ex refused to ever give me a moments peace when he was on the road, I lived on the phone with him. And if he felt that I wasn't giving him 150% of my attention then he would battle with me. That meant I never got cleaning done with him on the phone. He would be so angry with me. Then he'd come home and demand that I give him every waking moment of my time. If I got up and started to clean, then he would get mad and insist that I didn't love him any more or that I didn't want to be with him.

Excuses....in reality this is what I lived in....