Sir Sunday - Whenever edition

Hello again readers, I feel it is starting to happen again, Life…… Life gets in the way, inserts itself and decides to take and change your focus. It can be the little things, a small project that needs to be done, working overtime, missing some of the details. Or it can be major life altering changes, starting a new job or opening a business.

I feel the stress of some of these elements every day, I see them in HBD and our dynamic is usually the thing that takes the hit, not because we don’t want it or that we don’t want it to succeed… quite the contrary we want it to succeed, but it is still fledgling and young and vulnerable.

Our dynamic suffers because of past failures and wounds, this causes trepidations, allows for old bad habits to enter. I admit I am human and fall into bad patterns and habits when I am stressed, tired and worn out.

But I am supposed to be the strong one, her Rock , her Anchor when the squalls of the world are swirling around her, around us, I am supposed to be the safe place, Harbor from the storm. I am trying to be those things, in some ways I succeed and in others I am failing…...again. The Little things….. There is a lyric from a band named “Jim’s big Ego”, their song, stress goes like this “It's the little things that get you when you weren't paying attention”. I am a very musical person and believe in the concept of a soundtrack that can define your life, a top 10 if you will. That song is a contender for long term on my list.

My reaction to stress varies from hyperactivity to apathy, I have never been able to figure it out and it tends to go the wrong direction at the wrong time, couple that with the rest of my life and it is a recipe for problems. Problems in communication are the worst, these frustrate and obfuscate the issues adding to and compounding the issues, a little lapse or misstep becomes a major issue, when communication is compromised then both parties withdraw even more making it worse.

I will always struggle,  I will always have to resist the bad patterns and habits. I am only human after all. To my Babydoll, I promise you this; you are my everything, my whole life, the reason the sun rises in my world and I will always love you until past my dying day.

~DT